SLOCC

SLOCC , Singapore Lyrical Opera Children Choir.

This choir, it sounds so grand & so high class. The good news is that I am chosen to join the Every Saturday & perform with them every performance . I went passed the audition.
But the bad point is I AM 16 , And I am in the children choir, but not the youth choir. Standard is not there yet, I think. I can't quit right now. As I applied for the scholarship . I have to go through it until Dec 8th. All the best for me.
I cant even managed my primary priority well & now I am here and there .
Europe + SLOCC rehearsal . All for just a DPA . I also do not know poly will want me as their biomedical student or not :( .

Okay, Last Saturday , went for my first lesson.
They were very rush . They just rush through the whole school. I saw many "rich" people. Mostly were foreign people. So, I can't speak in SINGLISH , but ENGLISH. Super high class. But when the rehearsal started, it was very different from what I have expect. It is even less strict than my school's.
I like my school's rehearsal though . Stricter , but the difference was just the standard is not there , so we have to go through all the score detail.
SLOCC expects us to know it by ourselves. Stress for me, as I am weak at NOTES READING. So, I will just need to keep up. Bad point of going such a high class place yet do not have the standard.
They are not very discipline, and mostly are from primary school . At the age of 10 ? I am like one of the oldest  & I am being called "CHILDREN" . Haiis. What to do , I am in the children choir ,
Just have to endure it for awhile.

It is just the start & we will be singing and performing  for OKTO's KNOCKOUT.
I will be on the tv for a few seconds. Better than nothing :P . not very hyper about getting on TV . :P
So, I was not very disappointed :P .

And one day before my birthday, it was the JULY PERFORMANCE !!
13th July. Come and see my perform if you want. OF coz, nothing is free in Singapore, .

Yupp, that all I want to say .
Let's hope I will have an enjoyable trip .

My school's choir is going crazy over just one europe trip .
We WILL have rehearsals non stop for 2 weeks . THIS IS STUPID. :(

The Vow

Watched "The Vow" . 
I did not catch it at the cinema with anyone. Watched this at Funshion, No time & money to watch the movie too. I want to catch this with Melvin . But he is not the type to accompany to watch. Is not his type , Hahaha .

But the movie , I only give 3.1/5 .
But I like the quotes in the movie. Overall, the show is all about how everything changes, and how those 2 found their ownselves.


Movie started with them coming out of the cinema during a winter snowy period.
(I love the snow!) , and on the way home, they have an accident and everything changes.
As the female lead lost her memory and did not regain it .
The male lead been through alot , he tried everywhere to help her, including going through the parents' round. In the end, She found out that it was the parents that were re-writing her whole past to have their selfishness of not letting their daughter leave them again .
Most of the photos above will be able to bring my thinking to you all.
But, I forward it alot, Is kinda boring when the female lead want to find out everything and failed to get her memory back .


This movie is being inspired by a couple, which have 2 children now.
Her wife did not regain her memory at all . They are living happily after.

True Love : If we are meant to be together, we will be together anyway, 

Need to be back on track

I have kinda lost my track again. :( .
I have not stop eating for days. RICE, NOODLES, SEAWEED CHICKEN, BREAD.
I need to eat fruits, everything with fruits. 
I think I focus too much on my diet. After I change my diet to something else, I'm sick often.
Shouldn't I be more healthier than other days ? I am confused .
Growing sick right after my 3.6km slow jog & others.
Do I mind so much about my looks ? Idiot. Start to become so negative about it all a sudden.
I start to read up to the fitness blogs. I want to understand how they did it, & What I saw was CUT OFF CALORIES. How much more should I cut down ? Got to agree, through this whole process, it proved that I have weak self discipline.
I have no self discipline to control what I eat and do. I need to have a fixed time plan in my time for everything. Really.
Same goes for my studies.

Recently, I been sleeping on my bed instead of sitting at my study table with my books on.
Bad headache coming in, are all these necessary ? Do I need to stress myself ? Or everything comes naturally ?

So, I have to make my own decision.
Do I still need to be on the track that I was on previously or start to do something else to make myself feel better ?
So, Should I run today, for later on. Or should I just drag it ?
I need to answer all these on my own. I do not know how to answer all these all a sudden.
I have my books beside me, I can get start on it, but my brain start to tell me to workout, workout because i have a big tummy with me. So, does this mean that I mind my figure alot ? ._.
I HAVE ATE 2 SMALL RICES WITH HOMECOOK DISH. For this morning.
I feel comfortable eating it, but right after it. I feel bad about what I have done. Sickening,

I think I need to take a bath to coool down my thinking.
Going to dentist today. And going back to school afterwards, for my physics test,
I hope everything goes right. I need to stop tracking on what I am eating all those. It is stressing me.
I think I need to stop thinking I am fat. Even if I am.
Today, I will give up that thinking. :D . I am me :D







"This is real, this is meI'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, nowGonna let the light, shine on meNow I've found, who I amThere's no way to hold it inNo more hiding who I want to beThis is me" . 

Confused

Once again. I need to psycho myself that I'm not sick.
I have many tests to go for this whole entire week & one MAJOR exam coming. Plus, The Choir to Europe thing is making me stress-er than anything. I do not know the reason behind it.
One week of continuously training, one week of 20 over rounds. They are making me crazy. Worst, 2.4km & Napfa is coming. Suppose to be this week, but choir took away this week & gave me one whole week to practice and train my stamina.

I miss my dearest . :( .
9 more days to our lovely 8th month. I want to make this a better one at least , before he go into military life.
After that, I do not want to disturb him too much. I'll miss him to death. :P
Ah. I will not die without him, At least, I will make use of the time to improve myself :) .
I hope I can.

I can't wait for this coming FRIDAY .
I want to try out for the night cycling . I have never try before because my classmates do not allow me too, BECAUSE I AM A FEMALE. Yeah, they might just rape me they said. ._. , So, I did not try that when I got the chance. So, this time round, no excuse. I think I'm not that fit to hold on for the whole entire route to supper. But, at least, I as a female, get to try it :D
I AM SO EXCITED FOR IT :P 
Mel said that , they will not get lost. With iphone around . :P

Once again, Sick

Since yesterday :( .
I did not go to school today. Missed out many lessons again. Pathetic. 
Yesterday was the Chinese 清明节. I need to go pray to 婆婆和爷爷。I hope they will bless me everything. Give me hopes. I know they love me. Although I have never see 爷爷 before.
With Aunt and Junice & JooJoo Jie. They are smart peoples :D
When I reached there, I was alright.

I think was the heat and smoke I breathe in too much causes me to be sick.
Right after that, I was having a really bad headache, like a tumour in my head. It keep pounding .
After everything,went to have a small lunch with  family . Cant eat alot.
Once I ate, I feel like going to toilet.
I have been visiting the toilet like many times.

After everything, Meet Melvin at his house.
Finally I get to see him. I love him <3 , I was so damn hot. But I am not having a fever. Idk what happened to me. Super tired yesterday .

Melvin accompany me to visit the clinic. Sweet right.
After that, I need to do a paper.
I know what method to use for quite alot of questions, but do not know how to use or too panic to even touch it. Wa. How can like this.

&&& , YESTERDAY WAS NO APRIL FOOL DAYS.
No one trolled me except for Melvin .